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Post by Champ on Jun 4, 2010 18:49:03 GMT -5
What up all! I admitted myself in the hosp for the depression I mentioned to get on the right meds. I'm feeling much better and I'm STRAIGHT EDGED now! LOL
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Post by MasterSnit on Jun 5, 2010 6:45:58 GMT -5
Hey, good luck. Are you staying in hospital right now? Obviously Lost ending has hit you hard!  |
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Post by Velkontés on Jun 5, 2010 7:16:09 GMT -5
I was beginning to wonder where you went. Good to hear you're okay.
And I don't know why, but Punk and Gallows remind me of Dick Dastardly and Muttley for some reason.
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Post by Snitskyman2016 on Jun 5, 2010 7:18:04 GMT -5
Serena has a nice body.
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Post by Champ on Jun 5, 2010 10:21:11 GMT -5
Hey, good luck. Are you staying in hospital right now? Obviously Lost ending has hit you hard! No I'm home. I stayed there for 10 days so they can monitor me once and for all so I never have to plummet and end up at a place like that again. I became badly bi-polar and I was in the paranoia stage and they said it's a good thing I treated it when I did. I'll be doing an outpatient program for the next 2 weeks and then it'll turn into just visits a few days a week |
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Post by Naitch on Jun 5, 2010 13:27:48 GMT -5
Good to have you back my man. I'm glad your getting this help and I'm glad your happy.
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Post by Champ on Jun 8, 2010 20:27:13 GMT -5
Thanks man. It's still a long road. I just didn't realize how depressed I really was. Meds are adjusted and shit but I'm still feeling uneasy and I had my first rehearsal today since I've been back on track. It went well. Felt good to play again.
Today was also my second day at group and I'm talking to some girls again! So that's a start! lol I just gave up for almost 2 years after Megan. I simply didn't care anymore. The girls are all in their early 20s too
Sunday I'm going to see KOAG and meet his daughter. She's 9 months already and I still never made it up there. I just realized it's father's day too so I want to pick him up a little something since it's his first one.
But it's weird because I never realized how much I was avoiding and not living a life. I guess I didn't want to face just how tough it would be to go through all this therapy and go straight edged. I used to think, oh what about my birthday, I want to drink, Christmas, Memorial Day, 4th of July etc... But now I don't even want to drink at all. I want to know what it's like to have fun simply because life is fun. It's a long road but if I'm going to get there, it's now or never. So I can't give up
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Post by MasterSnit on Jun 9, 2010 15:23:04 GMT -5
One step at a time, man. Just make sure each step is a forward and positive step.
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Post by Naitch on Jun 9, 2010 16:11:21 GMT -5
Don't take that 13th step. Its a doozy.
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Post by MasterSnit on Jun 9, 2010 16:17:17 GMT -5
And stay away from the 19th hole.
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Post by Champ on Jun 9, 2010 21:31:09 GMT -5
The main goal(or 2 goals) in the end is basically to finally give a fuck about the little things again as well as conquering the big things
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Post by Naitch on Jun 10, 2010 8:14:24 GMT -5
I bet you already give a fuck about little things. Maybe not everyone else's priority in little things. But I bet you care (even if you don't realize it) every time someone does something for you. Give it a little bit of time.
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Post by Champ on Jun 12, 2010 10:48:27 GMT -5
Yeah simple little things. I can tell I'm trying to enjoy the music again and it's just taking time. Before, I flat out didn't give a fuck anymore. I enjoy coffee again. Even though it's not the best vice, it's great to look forward to something in the morning again
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