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Post by Champ on Apr 7, 2010 16:32:49 GMT -5
got kicked out of my house by my father. Stupid shit. It was probably bound to happen someday. But I'm bouncing around like a gypsy now. I spent last night(and tonight) at one friend's house and I have to go to a different friend's tomorrow. My friend whose house I'm at now works nights. So I'm down in his basement on his computer right now
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Post by Naitch on Apr 7, 2010 21:55:14 GMT -5
Hey man, I'm pulling for ya. Hope the best happens for you. Can't wait to see this story on Behind the Music!
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Post by Velkontés on Apr 8, 2010 8:36:58 GMT -5
Ack, that sucks. Hope you can get something sorted out.
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Post by MasterSnit on Apr 8, 2010 14:15:59 GMT -5
Yeah, good luck getting something sorted.
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Post by Snitskyman2016 on Apr 8, 2010 14:28:17 GMT -5
I am too upset to say anything.
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Post by Champ on Apr 9, 2010 2:24:00 GMT -5
Thanks guys. I'm back home but things aren't so good still. It's a lot of shit I'm not going to get into completely, Just the basics but my father really has it in for me for so many years and I think there's more to it than the stuff going on now. But it's going to be rough here for a while and I'm doing it for my mother.
Basically, if I don't get myself on my feet, go completely straight edged, and start bringing money in in a 3 month span, he'll disown me. I lied to him about stuff, which I was wrong about, but this is harsh man. He even talked about beating me with a baseball bat. I've been honest my whole life and I screwed up. I've never been in jail or trouble or threatened my family etc...
I could just move out and stay at a friend's house but then he said he'll never let me back in or talk to me again. Because I chose not to do the "right thing" by him and get real mental help for my issues. So I kind of have to stay here for me and my mother and do what he asks. It's better to do the right thing instead of moving out like a gypsy, crashing on couches and never getting accepted into my home again.
Also, if he sees me with one drink, it's over. So I'm like Jeff Hardy on 2 strikes right now. I definitely do need to clean my body out to get my head on straight but he thinks I'm a damn drug addict now too. I have been self medicating a lot and I DO want to go straight edged for a long while. I've just been really fucked up and that's why I've been self medicating more than usual. He's actually a big reason I've been self medicating. But I still won't say I was right, even though he took meds from me before when I had them. Go figure
And Naitch, god I hope you're right about it being a good rockstar story lol.
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Post by Velkontés on Apr 9, 2010 7:08:59 GMT -5
Yeah, that's a crappy situation. I can't really offer advice or anything, other than "try not to go crazy".
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Post by Champ on Apr 10, 2010 0:16:37 GMT -5
Yeah there really isn't much to say I'm just going to do my best
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Post by Naitch on Apr 10, 2010 6:21:06 GMT -5
If you need to vent more you know where to find us bro.
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Post by Champ on Apr 12, 2010 0:27:03 GMT -5
Thanks man. I really appreciate that. I don't want to "Sanchez" you guys. Then again, I don't make 3 threads about the same whiny topic all the time.
Basically, tomorrow, I'm starting and outpatient detox. The problem is, I came off vicodin and now I feel weak and I'm getting chills. I could deal with that but I have to quit drinking and smoking 420 too. Not to mention I'm withdrawing from an anti depressant my insurance stopped covering. So I really need help going clean when you combine all that. It'll be good for me once I'm fully detoxed.
The worst is the 420 lol. I love that and it never affected my well being. But I promised my father. But he sucks because he was smoking 420 in the house today. He really knows how to make shit harder on people.
The antidepressant thing is hard too. I switched to another one but I still have to get the old one out of my system. It pisses me the fuck off when they say anti depressants aren't addicting. Plus, they could care less about what you have to go through simply from switching one to another
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Post by Naitch on Apr 15, 2010 14:16:33 GMT -5
Don't worry about Sanchezing us. Your good people and we'll do what we can from where we are.
So does Outpatient Detox mean you get to go home at the end of the day? Good luck with it either way. I'm rooting for ya dude!
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Post by MasterSnit on Apr 15, 2010 15:20:41 GMT -5
I think an Outpatient is a patient who only visits the clinic every day or so for a couple of minutes to be given the medicine they need until the next time they visit.
Champ, if I could give one bit of advice, it is to keep yourself occupied with something. If you're not already start working out or jogging every day for a little while. It'll help take your mind off of other issues and give you a release.
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Post by Naitch on Apr 15, 2010 16:22:07 GMT -5
That there is some good advice MS.
Also, not to make light of the situation, but anyone else find it funny Champ going to rehab before his band makes it big?
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Post by Snitskyman2016 on Apr 15, 2010 19:18:05 GMT -5
That there is some good advice MS. Also, not to make light of the situation, but anyone else find it funny Champ going to rehab before his band makes it big? If they make it big it will be awesome story to tell.
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Post by Champ on Apr 15, 2010 23:00:32 GMT -5
It sure will! lol
I've been detoxing everything all week. I had a beer and a glass of wine to relax since it's the only one that's not really a problem. Once the DTs go away I can drop alcohol in a heartbeat. It makes me feel like shit at the end of the day. I did cheat with 420 though. It's my only true drug problem, but I don't view it as a problem. I'm like RVD when it comes to that. I just have a commitment to fulfill
I didn't go to outpatient for the detox. I'm just sucking it up, but I'm going to a substance meeting on Tuesday so they can evaluate me and tell me which type of psych or therapist will be the best. Honestly, I need that more than anything right now. I'm not a "junkie". I'm just overly self medicating because none of the depression meds ever worked and I've hit a crossroad lately. In other words, I really fell into another rut.
My father is talking to me again though! lol I think he realized he's no one to talk about "substance abuse" and he actually asked me how I've been feeling today. That shocked the hell out of me
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